TURUAN AKO

Ayaw maniwala sa bulung-bulungan
Na may iba ka na’t ako’y iiwanan
At nagkandarapa kita’y pinuntahan
Umaasang ito’y pasisinungalingan
Niyakap mo ako’t patawad hiniling
Nagmakaawa kang kita’y unawain
Wika’y nalusaw pag-ibig mo sa akin
Nang ikaw ay kanyang hagkan at yakapin
Mundo ko’y gumuho sa aking nadinig
Nanlumo ako’t mga tuhod nanginig
Ngunit di magawang sa iyo’y magalit
Masakit ma’y inunawa kitang pilit
At ako’y nagsumamong bago lisanin
Lumapit ka’t mahigpit akong yakapin
Habang ako’y yakap ibulong sa akin
Paano mabuhay nang ‘di ka kapiling
Turuan akong mamuhay nang mag-isa
Bago ka lumisa’t sumama sa kanya
Nasanay akong pag-gising sa umaga
Ngiti mo’y sisilay pagmulat nang mata
Mahirap na tanggaping ako’y iiwan
Ngunit hindi na kita kayang pigilan
Basta’t turuan mo akong kita’y kalimutan
Bago tuluyan na kamay ko’y bitawan
(Inspired by Michael Bolton’s “How Am I Supposed To Live Without You”)
Nang Ako’y Ngitian

(Inspired by Air Supply’s “Two Less Lonely People In The World”)
Buwan sa gabi’y nakatago sa ulap
Araw sa umaga ay ayaw sumikat
Laging bigo at sa lungkot nasasadlak
Ayaw nang umasa’t dala nang mangarap
Ayaw sa kabigua’y muling malugmok
Bakit nanaising sa luha’y malunod
Mundo ko sa pag-ibig ‘di na iinog
Puso marahil ‘di na muling titibok
Ngunit nakita ka’t ako’y nginitian
Tumigil ako at kita’y pinagmasdan
Ngiti mong nagkukubli ng kalungkutan
Parang nag-aanyayang kita’y damayan
Atubili ma’t maraming agam-agam
Ngumiti rin ako’t kita’y nilapitan
Nang kamay mo’y mahigpit na hinawakan
Balikat ko’y masuyo mong sinandalan
Sa malambot mong pisngi ako’y humalik
Ang tugon mo rito’y yakap na mahigpit
Sa puso’y tumibok muli ang pag-ibig
Minithing ligaya sa wakas nakamit
Mga puso nating bihasang mabigo
Nilaro ng tadhana bago nagtagpo
Nang kita’y matagpuan saka natanto
Sa ‘yo nakalaan itong aking puso
My Names and Pseudonyms
My name usually elicits giggles and buzz
Oftentimes it arouses questions and laughs
With MASSULINE ANTONIO… What’s the big fuzz?
None really, just read properly, is all that I ask
Into four syllables, my name be divided
Think it this way… MAS-SU-LI-NE, please be guided
MASSU in MASSULINE be carefully read
Following the pronunciation key at the end… (mäsū)
And the LI be not read as li as in Bruce’s Lee
But as lī in lie, as inventing a story
The NE , make it unique and a little naughty
Just follow the sound of ni in the word bikini
With different nicknames I was identified
From my initials, some have called me MAD
From Antonio, with TONY, I was also tagged
Believe me, even with MUSSI, I was marked
Sir Mad, Dr. Ligaya, at work, my epithets
Oh my, with too many nicknames, I was perplexed
When still a child my playmates had me labelled
They would call me DADDU, and I’l be angered
In a previous workplace in my country
People said they find my name a little funny
Because it’s tiring to call my name in its entirety
DR. JOY… yes, indeed, that was how they called me
But of all those monikers I got called with
There’s only one I would consider so sweet
I would feel so delighted whenever I hear it
That is CHING, music to my ears indeed.
“Nom de plume” I also used in writing
When my identity as writer I am hiding
“The Fabulist” when anthropomorphizing
Animals for human follies I am attacking.
I parodied Quijano De Manila of Nick Joaquin
Quinano De Ilocandia as alias I am using
But in most instances the one I have been adopting
It’s HARDPEN the best of all my pseudonyms
Source: My Names and Pseudonyms
Do NOT Expect

If you think this is a perfect world then be ready to face a perfect disappointment. This is not a perfect world. Things are not the way you wish them to be. People don’t behave, talk and think the way you wish they would. Your co-workers, your boss, your friends…even the people you love… might treat you in a way quite the opposite of your expectations.
Nothing is perfect in this world. Nobody is perfect in this world. So, do not expect too much or do not expect anything at all.
Do not expect that the politicians will deliver on their promises. Do not believe them when they say that should you vote for them they would bring about utopia. Be thankful if they could but do not bet not even a dollar on it. No earthly being is capable of making the social conditions in the world perfect.
Expect nothing from your leaders. If you think you could do better than them…that your country is better off with you at the helm… then run for public office. Oppose them. Otherwise it would be best if you just perform your civic duties and be a responsible person and citizen.
Do not also expect that the workplace is a perfect environment. That’s the worst assumption you can make. You will never find a heavenly workplace. You will end up disappointed if you expect that the people in your organization, from the rank and file to the people upstairs, are angels. They are not. They are just like you and me…humans.
Expect nothing from anyone in your workplace. Just work and perform your duties and responsibilities as stipulated in your job description. That’s the way to do it. Love the job and enjoy the pay.
If you’re not happy with the job and the pay… LEAVE. If you love your work and the compensation is good but you feel that the organizational climate is so terrible that it suffocates you then LEAVE. It is as simple as that. Find employment somewhere else. Find the perfect workplace you dream of. If you think you are too good to be just an employee then start a business. Make it grow. Employ people and see for yourself if you would be a better employer than the employers you hate.
You should not expect other people to solve your problem (or solve a problem for you)…not even if those people are mandated by their job description to solve those problems. Even if it is the moral obligation of a person to help you get out of a difficult situation, don’t expect that you’ll get help from that person. Be thankful if you’ll get it but one thing you OUGHT to learn is to solve your own problems. Find a solution to whatever difficulty you are encountering.
Do not expect people to think and behave the way you do and embrace your principles and advocacies. Always remember that people look at things from their own perspectives and are driven by a set of motivations that maybe entirely different from yours.
Remember that people think and behave in different ways. The biggest disappointment you’ll ever encounter is when you expect that all people (or even half of them) are reasonable and conscientious.
You will be gravely disappointed if you expect that the love, generosity and kindness you show will be reciprocated by your friends, loved ones or anyone around you. Do not expect any of them to praise the good things you’re doing and express gratitude for the favors you do for them. Lucky you if they would.
Lucky you, indeed, if the people you deal with , the leaders you elect, the ones you work with and work for, and your family and friends have conscience and conduct themselves within the bounds of reason.
If not, does it mean mean you are unlucky? Not necessarily. Things just didn’t turn out the way you wanted. At least, don’t be like them.
You have two options. You need to decide. Move away from them or embrace them for the way that they are.
Your choice.
As Mother Theresa said, “People are often unreasonable and self-centered, forgive them anyway.”
She added, “ You give the world the best you have and it may never be enough, give your best anyway.”
You might not get the fair treatment and respect you think you deserve but you do not have to retaliate. As Martin Luther King Jr. puts it, “Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”
So, when your expectations are not met, move on and say, “Life goes on.”
You hold on to your dreams. Hold on to your values.
Tula
Pinagsama-sama ko ang aking mga tula ayon sa mga kategoryang pinili ko. Ang mga tula kong may temang pag-ibig ay aking inipon sa pahinang may pangalang TIBOK habang ang mga tulang tumatalakay sa bayan, pagkamamamayan at mga isyu patungkol sa pulitika ay sa BAYAN MUNA. 
Ang mga paboritong kong love songs sa English eh ginanawan ko rin ng tula at mababasa ang mga ito sa TINULANG TUGTOG.
Sumulat din ano ng mga tula ukol sa kung ano-anong bagay at mga isyu o mga paksa na hindi tumatalakay sa pag-ibig at sa bayan. Pinagsama-sama ko ang mga ito sa SAMU’T-SARING TULA.
May mga sinulat rin akong satirikong tula na bumabatikos sa mga sa palagay ko’y ugaling ‘di maganda ng mga taong nakapaligid sa akin at ng mga taong nakakasama ko sa trabaho. Ito ay parunggit ngunit hindi ako nagmamalinis dahil maaring angkin ko rin ang mga ugaling hindi ko nagugustuhan sa iba kaya’t kapag nababasa ko ang aking mga tulang ito’y nagbubulay-bulay din ako. Pinagsama-sama ko ang mga tulang ito sa pahinang pinangalanan kong SA PILING NG MGA HAYOP. Bahala na ang babasa kung ano sa tingin nila ang kahulugan ng salitang hayop sa sa bahaging sa pangalan ng pahinang ito.
Lumikha rin ako ng pahina para sa mga tula kong sinulat habang ako’y nakasakay sa jeep o insipired ng mga experiences ko sa pagsakay sa jeep. Matatagpuan ang mga tulang ito sa pahinang binansagan kong HETO NA ANG JEEP
May mga sinulat rin akong APATANG TALUDTOD (Quatrains). Nag-eksperimento rin ako sa isang uri ng tula na tinawag kong PAKWELANG TALUDTURAN na sa unang tatlong taludtod ay parang seryoso ang tinatalakay subalit sa pang-apat (clincher) ay ang sundot na patawa.
‘Source: Tula
TIBOK
Animo’y tibok ng puso ang ritmo na dumadaloy sa bawat taludtod ng mga tulang nagpapahayag ng pag-ibig. Mabilis na tibok ang kahalintulad ng walang mapagsidlang saya ng taong umiibig. Wika nga’y malakas ang kabog. Subalit unti-unting babagal ang tibok na para bang malalagutan na ng hininga kapag ang saya sa pusong umiibig ay naglaho.
Maaring sanhi ito ng hindi pagkakaintindihan ng magsing-irog o kaya’y isa sa kanila’y tumalikod sa sumpaang hanggang sa huling tibok ng kanilang mga puso na sila’y mag-iibigan.
Ang mga tula sa bahaging ito ay tungkol sa pag-ibig at sa lahat ng damdaming pinupukaw nito. Ang mga unang kinatha kong tula noong aking kabataan ay tungkol sa pag-ibig. Magpahanggang ngayon ay kumakatha pa rin ako ng mga tulang hindi niliklika ng isip kundi’y itinitibok ng puso.
Ang mga sumusunod ay ilan sa mga tulang itinibok ng aking puso.
1. Andap
2. Dito
3. Kangkarot
4. Kape’t Manamis
5. Larawan
6. Lamig
7. Parang Hangin 1
8. Parang Hangin 2
9. Parang Hangin 3
10. Tuyong Dahon
Tungkol din sa pag-ibig ang mga tulang inipon ko sa link na sumusunod: Tinulang Tugtog.
Self-Doubt: The 8th Deadly Sin

Lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride are referred to in Christian teachings as the “seven deadly sins.” These, to the Roman Catholics, are the cardinal sins. If a person commits any of the said sins, he is believed to be cut off from God’s grace.1
Actually, the Bible does not specifically mention the concept “seven deadly sins.” But in Galatians 5: 16-19, identified are 15 acts of the sinful nature. Perhaps St. Gregory the Great, during his reign as Pope, attempted at conciseness so he tried to reduce that number and chose only the worst sins that man can commit hence we have a shorter list of capital vices.
But St. Paul (who wrote the Galatians) and St. Gregory overlooked another human frailty that (this writer) believes, should have been added in the list of sins. There exists another spiritual infirmity which is equally harmful as any of the deadly sins. It’s called self-doubt.
But should self-doubt be really considered a sin? Is it so serious an offense that it can affect a person negatively and it could possibly ruin his life.
Many would say it’s a bit too much to consider it as such. But self-doubt is not an ordinary flaw in a person’s character.
For the purpose of this essay, we will define self-doubt, strictly, as “the feeling of not having confidence in yourself or your abilities.”2 The DOUBT being discussed here does not refer to that philosophical function “to cast doubt.”3
The definition above (the one before the disambiguation) makes self-doubt sound harmless…not something immoral or demonic that would make the moralists and bible scholars (both past and present) look at it as a sin. That’s probably the reason no religious movement, Christianity included, classified such human inadequacy as a sin…much more a deadly one.
Self-doubt, however, is not as simple as it seems. This impotence of the human spirit have grave consequences not only to the person having it but to the family where he belongs and to the society where he lives. A person plagued by it will be less-productive or not productive at all and is definitely not going to contribute anything for his family and society.
In arguing that self-doubt is a sin it is important to review the nature of sin in the philosophical standpoint.
Sin is said to be a moral evil.4 This brings us to another question…what is evil? St. Thomas defines the word (evil) as a privation of form or order or due measure. Evil implies a deficiency in perfection.4
Self-doubt is clearly an imperfection. It indicates the absence of confidence which is considered essential for a person’s well-being and is a requirement in the pursuit of what Abraham Maslow refers to in Psychology as “self-actualization” or achieving one’s full potential. Sin is a diversion from the perceived ideal order of human living.5 A person doubting his capabilities veers away from becoming the best that he can be and reduces his chance of living life to the fullest.
It could be argued that there are lot of other negative human characters that may indicate imperfections. But none is as damaging to the person as self-doubt. Something is wrong with a person if he lacks confidence and has very low (or no) feeling of self-worth. These are conditions that may lead to failure and unhappiness.
In addition, philosophical or moral sin is a human act not in agreement with rational nature and right reason.5
It is an offense against reason, truth, and right conscience. 6 It is unreasonable to doubt one’s capabilities. It is a person’s moral obligation to believe in himself. It is not right to think one would fail even without really trying. He needs to have faith not only in God (if he happens to believe in one) but also in himself.
Allowing self-doubt to reign is depriving the self of discovering one’s potentials. When a person decides to doubt himself, he eradicates his ability to fulfill his goals and to achieve his dreams.
Failures are indeed impossible not to happen. But even if one fails in several attempts to succeed he should decide not to stop trying. There’s a long list of famous personalities (like Albert Einstein, Abraham Lincoln, J.K. Rowling, Bill Gates, Walt Disney and Henry Ford) who had their share of failures but never gave up.
Sin, also, wounds the nature of man.6
Thalk emphasizes that self-doubt destroys the heart, mind, body and soul. It is one of the major obstacles to living the life that people truly deserve. This unhealthy food for the soul drags down a person’s spirit, crushes his ambitions, and prevents him from achieving all that he can.7
Doubt impedes a person’s development. It is the biggest roadblock to self-actualization. Self-doubt prevents people from becoming the best they could be… from realizing their full potentials… from achieving their dreams. Shakespeare stressed, “Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt.” Suzy Kassem added that doubt kills more dreams than failure ever did.
Some degree of self-doubt is generally held to be normal. It can be helpful in some cases, as it often leads to introspection and enhanced performance. But it may require medical help when it becomes debilitating, affects daily function, or impedes performance at work or school.8
There’s no immorality committed when one doubts himself. Why should it be then considered a sin?
A sin may either be a sin of commission or a sin of omission. Sins of commission are sins we commit by doing something we shouldn’t do and sins of omission are sins we commit by not doing something.9 The seven deadly sins are all sins of commission except sloth. Self-doubt should be considered also as a sin of omission.
Sloth, which is excessive laziness or the failure to act and utilize one’s talents,10 made it to the list of the “deadly sins.” “Self-doubt,” which is far more damaging to a person than this sin called “sloth,” should be included in the list if only to make people conscious about it. People usually make a conscious effort of avoiding committing things that are considered sinful.
To overcome self-doubt it is important that a person traces the root causes. He should know what factors trigger his self-doubts and learn how to overcome them. If it is lack of knowledge and skills then he must exert efforts to learn and acquire those that he perceives he lacks. There is a possibility that the ones causing him to doubt himself and his capabilities are people… sometimes his own friends. Then by all means avoid them. Equally important it that he must surround himself with people who bring the best in him.
It may be easier said than done but it is important that a person maintains a positive outlook and thinks that there is nothing he cannot achieve or do if he wills it.
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References:
- http://www.deadlysins.com
- http://www.macmillandictionary.com/dictionary/british/self-doubt
- http://rebirthofreason.com/Articles/Rowlands/Philosophy_as_Doubt.shtml
- http://www.newadvent.org/cathen/14004b.htm
- https://en.wikipedia.org
- http://www.vatican.va/archive/ccc_ccs/archive/cathecism/p3s1c1a8.htm
- http://www.huffingtonpost.com/dr-cynthia-thaik/self-doubt_b_2960936.html
- http://www.goodtherapy.org/learn-about-therapy/issues/self-doubt
- http://www.revelation.co/2015/07/21/sins-of-commission-vs-sins-of-ommission
- http://www.bibleinfo.com/en/questions/what-are-seven-deadly-sins

