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Overcoming Homesickness

homesickness2(A Personal Essay)

Longing for home – that’s the simplest way to explain what homesickness is. It is the feeling of sorrow that results from leaving behind loved ones and friends to go somewhere far, usually overseas, for a long period of time

Well, a lot have been written about the subject. The loneliness one feels when away from home is the theme of many essays, stories, and poems. There are also movies about homesickness and plenty of books and speeches sharing tips on how to overcome it are available.

As an expat working here in South Korea (since 2013), I can say that I am no stranger to homesickness. I am  so familiar with this emotional experience. I know how it feels to be hundreds of miles away from the comfort of home and the warm embrace and assuring presence of friends and  loved ones. I know how discomforting it is to be in an unfamiliar territory where almost everything is different from what one was accustomed to.

There are people claiming to have never experienced homesickness. Well, good for them. What about me?

I  waged a battle against this  emotional discomfort during my first weeks here in South Korea. I thought that mentally preparing for a departure from my comfort zone would be enough to help me overcome whatever challenges that await me in this country, including homesickness.

While waiting for the day I would fly to this country,  I tried to  prepare for it mentally by accepting that I would not be with my family for a long time and that my wife who takes good care of me and prepares everything I need wouldn’t be there to help. I thought that somehow I could also prepare emotionally for  a life away from my country and my family by simply accepting that it would  soon be my reality. I was wrong.

Excitement overwhelmed me when I came out of the plane at the Gimhae International Airport. I was so happy  seeing South Korea for the first time and thinking of my good fortune  for being given the opportunity to teach here. But the euphoria was short-lived. Upon entering the apartment the university provided, the reality that I was by my lonesome in a faraway place, something that I thought I have already fully embraced when I departed home, seemed like tiny needles starting to prick my emotions.

When I began unpacking, I recalled the conversation I had with my wife and my son while they were helping me stuff all those things in my luggage.  I remember how the lady of my house tried unsuccessfully to control her tears. I remembered also the phone calls I made to my parents. It was less than a day of being separated from my family and I was already missing them. Just that  and all of a sudden my first episode of homesickness kicked in. Sadness crept in slowly. The early spring weather giving me a chilly welcome exacerbated it.

I tried to dismiss the thought of me feeling homesick by thinking that I was just tired, hungry, and cold at that time. But the feeling lingered in the next days notwithstanding the heater in my room, the multiple layers of clothes in my body, and the hot and spicy foods on my table.

I dreaded the coming of night and the weekend for it meant being alone in my room. At least when in the workplace I have the company of my colleagues and my students and the work made me preoccupied.

During my first two weeks here in South Korea, I was in a funk and I knew I couldn’t afford to stay that way or else my job performance would be adversely affected. So, I resolved to eradicate the problem.  I know I had in my repertoire of skills something that I could summon to help me figure out how to get out of the said funk – my ability to bounce back from adversity.

The first thing I did was stop denying that I was longing for home. I stared homesickness in the eyes. I treated it as a problem so I would be able to have the mindset that it could be resolved.

And much that I was missing home and my family, I tried to see if Skyping  my loved ones in the Philippines longer than usual would help. Thank God It did. I pushed it further by requesting my wife as well that when we’re done talking she should not cut the Skype connection. I even told her to bring the laptop in any place in the house where I could see her and our son. That worked more wonders for me. Seeing my wife and my son moving around our house in the Philippines doing what they usually do and hearing the songs they listen to and other familiar sounds  – the roosters crowing, the dogs barking, the horns of vehicles honking – was emotionally comforting.

It’s hard to believe but I had homesickness figured out within my first month here in South Korea. Thanks to Skype and Facebook Messenger. Thanks also to South Korea’s fast internet connection that allows me to make a video call with my family practically anytime and wherever I am – home, office, or even in the mountain when I was hiking.

I and my family could Skype as long as we want. But it couldn’t be for 24/7. There are times as well that my wife or my son have pressing concerns and other things to attend that makes connecting with them impossible.

Those are the times when I pursue my other passion – writing. I write stories, essays, poems, and research papers. I write in both English and Filipino. It’s only a hobby. Yes, sometimes I get paid for the things I write but I am doing it primarily for the immense joy and sense of satisfaction it gives me.

I have a lot of free time here in South Korea that I was able to create and maintain my own website (Hardpen’s Portfolio). The said website serves as repository for my writings.

Maintaining my website and creating its contents have been making me super busy so much so that I could no longer find time to be homesick.

There were times that I could not even Skype my family because I was busy attending to my website.

Nowadays, whenever people ask me how I got through homesickness I already have a definite response –  by Skyping my family and writing.

Anyway, there are other activities that I do after work  not only to keep homesickness away but to achieve work-life balance – watch movies and the sports I love, go to the gym, read books, and watch videos on personal growth and development. You may say I have a boring routine. But it works for me. Of course, I go out with a very few selected friends during special occasions. But basically, I am a lone wolf. That is by choice for I wanted to avoid vices and troubles.

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About HARDPEN

Teacher-Writer Hardpen is my nom de plume. My real name is Massuline Antonio Dupaya Ligaya. Many times I was asked the question, "Why do you write?" I don't write for rewards nor adulation. When I write poems, stories, and essays, when I do research, seeing them completed gives me immense joy and satisfaction. I don't write for cash incentives, "likes," and "praises." I would be thankful if I'll have them but the happiness and sense of fulfillment I feel when completing my works are my real rewards. Is teaching difficult? No! When I teach, I don't work but I play. The classroom is my playground, the students are my playmates, and the subject is our toy. Proud to be me! Proud to be a FILIPINO! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

Posted on September 15, 2019, in Homesickness, Overcoming Homesickness, Work-life Balance and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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